A Bathing Ape Spring/Summer Collection

In the words of my fav. rapper Curren$y, "I still rock Bapes, even though they almost got killed by fakes."

BAPE never fails to put out some of the cleanest threads out..despite of the fact that it's rediculously high-priced...even one pair of socks are $20! Definitely still on my wish list for this year.

Everyone Has Flaws....

Earlier this week, a friend asked me what do i least like about myself. I thought about it for a bit, and only one thing could come to mind....my lack of self-confidence.

One of my biggest struggles in life was right there in my mirror.I keep aking myself why do i always tend to put myself down? I ask God to help me with it. I was always bombarded with the thought that I wasnt a decent looking dude, even though i would have somebody tell me that im handsome every now and then..but I never got the more flattering compliments like my younger brother got. I would always wish there was something i could do to change it.

That low self-esteem followed me even when i was in my teens. Adolescence is hard enough, but imagine having your own natural insecurities about your flaws, heightened by the negative reaction of others. My appearance began to depress me.

I realize now that everybody has flaws about them, even if it's not on the outside. Beauty is only skin deep. Now, I learned just to just love myself for who i am and never let the negativity get in the way.

That Damn "L" Word

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Patrick Darrell

2oo9: The Wrap-Up

Well, it's finally here...the end of 2oo9. Im surprised how fast it went. But to be honest, Im glad that its over with. There were the best of times...and then there were the worst of times.Had the chance to meet some cool new friends, as well as having to lose a few in the process. I really found a small circle of people that I can really call "friends". Haven't found "That One" yet, I finally decided to just drop it and let her find me.

Been slacking on those goals that I set at the very beginning of this year, but now I'm very determined to accomplish them all..and then some. At one point in your life, you have to learn that you cant look for everybody to get things done for you..you gotta learn how to do it on your own.

With that said, I wish everybody a Happy New Year, and I will see you in 2o1o.

Until Next Time,

Patrick Darrell

Im Back....kinda

Man, I haven't been blogging on here in a while. But nothing interesting has been going on with me lately so, it is what it is.LOL.

But Ive been doing alot of thinking as of late.

Starting next week, everyday, Im gonna write a little something on here just to let yall know whats going through my mind(as if most of you care)LOL. They will be titled "The Patrick Darrell Diaries".

But I have nothing for you tonight..my brain is fried! =/

Until Next Time..

Patrick Darrell

THESE ARE A MUST HAVE!!!

In my opinion, Wale's "Attention Deficit" is the best debut album of 2oo9. What got me was the album cover. When you first see an album cover as dope as this, you expect for the actual album to be dope as well....and it didnt disappoint me. My favorite songs on this album were "Beautiful Bliss","Shades", and "Inhibitions" feat. Pharrell. I really recommend you to buy this..you won't be disappointed.

Also....

You gotta listen to this mixtape called "Burn After Rolling" from an up and coming artist named Wiz Khalifa. If you're a real Hip-Hop head, this is one dude you shouldn't sleep on. I would even throw this in as one of the best mixtapes of 2oo9.

Until next time,

Patrick Darrell

No Ceilings

This is the latest mixtape from Lil' Wayne. It was suppose to come out on Halloween, but I got the whole thing last night.hahaha.

Overall, it was a pretty decent mixtape...the best one he released since Drought 3. I liked how he used little to NO auto-tune on it...unlike The Dedication 3(SMH).And..as much as I hate to say it... he killed Jay-Z's tracks!But personally, I like the Wayne from 2006..he was at his best lyrically back then.

Patrick Darrell